At this moment I have absolutely no desire to drink. Zero. Zilch. It hasn’t always been like this and I don’t know if it will stay like this either. On a “good” night of drinking I’d stop at 8–10 beers. On a bad night I would start first thing in the morning, drink 12–13 beers, take a nap, and drink another 12. Writing this makes me cringe to think of the numerous wasted days and nights I’ve had drinking myself into oblivion.
But, I don’t want to forget either. I fear if I forget the bad times with alcohol it won’t be long before I pick-up again. I never want to do that. Life is way too good without alcohol in my life. Sure, I still have bad days, really bad days even, but those bad days are nothing compared to the kind of bad days I had when drinking alcohol. When drinking and I had a bad day I would drink more to try and numb the pain but you can only numb so long before a flood of emotions or deep despair fills your corpse-like vessel. I refer to myself as a corpse because that is essentially what I was. I was emotionally dead, empty, had nothing to give to anyone, not even myself.
At my worst I prayed and begged for physical death, not knowing how I would, or if I even could, get out of the deep hole I dug for myself. It was one of the darkest places I’ve ever been.
You may not have reached that point yet, but you will, it’s just a matter of when and then you’ll have a decision to make. Do I live a miserable existence and drink myself to death or do I reach out for some help and leap out of that hole into a beautiful place of freedom and love. Love for yourself and others. I hope you choose freedom and love. I hope you choose life.
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'Your windshield is bigger than your rearview for a reason; the mirror is there to help you glance back at where you’ve been, but if you focus too much on it, you’re going to crash.
We are ALL affected by our past and we are ALL reminded of it now and again, but we cannot live in it unless we want to repeat it over and over again. We need to learn from it, take lessons from it, know what’s good (and not good) for us, and adjust accordingly. Mistakes are only mistakes until we learn from them and then they become lessons.'
Love this from the Your Tango blog, it sums up the need for a forward focused growth mindset in sobriety and life in general.
Having an amazing time in #Japan and managed to head south out of Tokyo for a few days today to Kamakura by the ocean.
The drinking culture here is totally different to the UK, but all the bars are full, not many AF options either, but I wouldn’t want to visit such an amazing place and spoil it by boozing.
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